Celebrate MAY Giveaway!

May has become an important month to me. In May 2003, I was diagnosed with cervical cancer. In May 2004, I was pronounced "in remission." In May 2005, we started the process to adopt our daughter. In May 2008, I was pronounced "cured." In May 2011, I sold the Defiance trilogy.

You can see why May is an important month for me! I am grateful for every May milestone. Yes, even the cancer. Everything, good or bad, has taught me something valuable and has turned into a blessing over time. I'm grateful, and I'd like to celebrate!

To celebrate, I decided to give things away!

What things am I giving away? No, not my Johnny Depp poster. Get your own. I'm giving away DEFIANCE things, of course!

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Here's the scoop:

To enter, simply leave me a comment here telling me something or someone you're grateful for. Make sure to leave your email address so I can contact you if you win!! (This is super important because I don't have time to trek across the internet looking for you and would be forced to give your prize to someone else!)

I'll use random.org to draw winners for the following prizes:

Grand Prize: An annotated, signed ARC of DEFIANCE.

Second Place: A signed DEFIANCE bookmark, and the opportunity to have a secondary character in book 2 named after you or someone you love.

Third Place: Two people will each win a signed DEFIANCE bookmark.


1. The contest is open to North America only, but check back at the end of June for an international giveaway!

2. You must leave a comment on this post telling me something or someone you're grateful for and why.

3. You must leave me a valid email address to use in contacting you if you win.

4. The contest is open until 8 p.m. Central Time May 31st.

Good luck!!


  1. I am very grateful for my sister. Even though she's super annoying sometimes, I don't know what I'd do without her. <3 :)



  2. Totally cheesy, but completely true: Blessed by and thankful for my Hubby :)


  3. I am grateful for my hard working husband who provides so that I can stay home and raise our kids.


  4. I am grateful for being able to stay home and raise my 10 month old boy instead of having to put him in daycare.

    --Jennifer McCoy


  5. I am thankful for peace. The peace to which has given me the ability to live. If I didn't have this peace I would not be alive


  6. Wow, May certainly is a HUGE month for you! I am in awe of your attitude, despite all the things you've been through.

    Today is my husband's and my three year wedding anniversary (though we have been together for nine years) and I am so incredibly grateful for him. For the three years that we have been married, I have struggled with almost constant kidney stones. He has been there with me to every doctor's visit, ER trip, and surgery, and he has never once complained. He is my rock, and I am so lucky to have found him.

    I can't wait to read DEFIANCE! It sounds amazing. I hope all your future Mays are full of happy-making things. :-)

    1. and duh, I forgot my email. It's stefanienoell@gmail.com

  7. I am very grateful for my mother who has always put up with me and supported me through everything.


  8. Wow, that is amazing.

    I am grateful for my mother. I come from a family where we don't really share our emotions or feelings, but my mother has her ways of showing how much she cares. She always put her children before herself, even when we're being brats (I'm using a nice word there). I'll be even more lost than I am now if she weren't there.


  9. GO MAY! I love September mostly b/c it feels like I can start new, you know? I am completely grateful for my life. I have to thank God for that. Right now I'm at the top of my class, am very healthy, and have a strong happy family. Of course there is the occasionally down side to life but I'm grateful for each and every second of life :)

    1. AH! MY EMAIL! I forgot! Sorry!


      It's completely valid! And YAY FOR YOU CJ! My teacher right now is fighting the side effects of chemo. She's back at school trying to spend some time with her students including me :)

  10. I'm grateful for the perfect weather we're having today in DC. I'm grateful I work at a place where I took a long-ish lunch so I could have a nice walk in the sunshine. I'm grateful for that walk as well- a lovely, brisk, head-clearing walk.

    jessicaborash at gmail dot com

  11. I am grateful for laughter. It's what keeps me going.


  12. I'm so grateful for one of my dearest friends at work for giving me the courage to live my own life. You can't always go around in life trying to please everyone, and she helped me realize that. :)


  13. That's incredible. There's coincidence and there's stories like this that make me believe just about anything is possible.

    I'm grateful for opportunity. For the fact that I am in school right now studying so that I can help make a difference in the world. For the fact that even though it's hard, and I fall asleep at my desk often with course readings, that I don't give up and give it my all. And I'm grateful for the people who tell me that, hey, it may be hard, but you can do it. These people don't know how much that means, but I'm humbled all the same.

    1. I...am also grateful for the reply button, because, like a complete spaz, I forgot my e-mail. It's papereader@gmail.com. :P

  14. I've been pining away for this book. Congrats on your sell to Harper and also on being cancer free for almost 10 years. That is truly amazing!

    I'm grateful for so many things. Being alive, having a roof over my head, food on the table. But mostly I'm grateful for my family. My mother is riddled with health issues but she keeps going. She survived the loss of her son, her oldest daughter developing a kidney disease at 7 years old, and my father having a stroke at 26 years old when I was just 4 years old. I'm greateful for my whole family and they have been such an inspiration to me. They've kept going and looking forward no matter how hard life gets. I'm grateful that despite all the obsticles, we are all still here together. :)

  15. I'm grateful for my two best guy friends. They've kept my head above water since we were in sixth grade, defending me to the bullies, boosting my confidence when I was down, listening anytime I needed them, no matter how far away we were. They've been by my side for fifteen years, and that's how it's going to be for the next fifteen and the fifteen after that . . . and maybe even fifteen more :)

    I'm tori [at] flynntribe (dot) com

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  17. I'm grateful for my friends and family! I have been really blessed with wonderful, loving people in my life and also I am grateful that I have graduated college and that I am officially done with school! lol.


  18. I am grateful for my parents. They have always supported my dreams, even bending over backwards to support me and make sure I can do everything that is important to me. The thing that I am really grateful for is that they are still doing this even though we are having financial troubles. I will never forget the sacrifices they've made for me.


  19. I'll stick with the May theme!! My mom and gramma's bday's are in May, and my other grandparents celebrate their wedding anniversary in May~~66 years on the 4th!! So I'm grateful for my family!!


  20. I am grateful for my mother. I am VERY grateful to have a mother who read to me and my siblings when we were younger. Who read my first stories and explained to me all the little things like 'paragraphs' and 'quotation marks'. And who introduced me to things like NaNoWriMo and the entire fantasy genre. If not for her, I would not be the writer I am today.

    And considering she and my dad got in a car accident two days ago and emerged relatively unscathed, I am very, VERY grateful for my mom.


  21. I am grateful for my two children. Having them has shown me what love really is and reminds me to enjoy life every single day. I feel lucky every day.

    clairekjohnson at gmail dot com

  22. i'm grateful for sunshine, inside and out.

    happy may to you! here's to another healthy one. :)


  23. I am grateful for my parents. There are times that I take them for granted, but all in all, I know that they love and support me in everything I do. There is no way that I could possibly express my gratitude for what they have done for me. It is because of them that I am pursing writing and it is because of them that I now have a Bachelor's Degree in Nursing. They pushed me, always wanting the best for me. Especially my mom, who is a role model for me in every way.

    Thank you so, SO much for this giveaway. I would be SO AMAZING if I won. <333

    darcyette AT hotmail DOT com

  24. I am grateful for the internet and social media sites...they have helped me discover writers and allowed me to follow them, sharing their joys and tears - this has given me the courage to continue my own writing despite my MS. Further, because of the internet, I now know that someday llamas and squirrels will take over the world and we are nothing but pawns in their game.


  25. I'm grateful for my mom who always supports me no matter what.


  26. I'm grateful for the two young ladies who used to live around the corner who babysat our kids, even traveling into the allergy-filled mountains with us one time for that very purpose!


    1. Ha! That was the trip where a bird pooped in my hair when I had the kids outside! That's pretty much all I remember from that trip, lol.

  27. I am grateful for you dear daughter! Life would certainly have been different without you!!!

    1. And by different, you mean far less entertaining ... don't try to hide it. I know you enjoy laughing at the stuff I do. ;D

  28. I'm grateful to be a mom. I'm constantly reminded what it's like to have my heart walk outside of my body daily. They remind me how precious life it. For them, I am grateful.


  29. I am most grateful for my twin sister that stands by me all the time. She is the solid rock in my life, even when it comes to doing school work, she will always be there for me~ :D I LOVE YOU STELLA!

    1. Ooppss~ Forgot my email: catchingashootingstar at hotmail dot ca

  30. I am grateful for my grandmother who helped raise me. She taught everything I know especially how to be strong and believe in myself


  31. I am greatful for my dad. I was adopted at three days old; my birth mother gave me up when she was 21yrs old. My aopted dad and mom took me home and cared for me as their own. My mom was diagnosed with cancer and died when I was 3yrs old. My dad handled it as best as he could and still managed to work a job and take care of me! He saved up since I was brought into the family for me to go to university and supports me fully in anything that i do.

    that is why I am greatful for my dad :)


  32. I'm grateful for. . .
    (Don't pressure me I am thinking)
    . . .a couple hours of me time after the kids are all in bed. Sound really pathetic but after an entire day of NOISE and NEED all I want is to relax with the relative silence of my own mind. Well, that and a good book. Nothing gets me feeling like I can face another day like a great book.
    Wait there is more. . .
    I'm grateful for . . .
    (Now I am just messing with you.)
    . . .unexpected surprises of loyalty and understanding. I have recently had this sort of moment with my mother. I always knew she was proud of me but I didn't understand how much she believed in me. I mentioned a dream of mine, which I expected her to find silly, and she got behind it one hundred percent. So I am grateful for my mother who will always have my back and encourage me to dream.

  33. I can't wait to read this! I'm grateful for my husband for always supporting my writing. ebriggs23 at gmail.com

  34. i am grateful for my parents and siblings. spring 2012 was a particularly challenging semester in grad school and i love that they listened to my ranting, bitching and tearful stressing without complaint.


    chelleyreads AT gmail DOT com

  35. I am thankful for authors who write awesome books! Okay, cheesy answer, but still true!

    (Also, I totally sat in front of you at the book signing for "Hourglass"/"Until I Die" this past Monday. I don't think I got the chance to introduce myself though -- Monday is kindof a blur of awesomeness right now. hahah. I know the woman sitting beside me said she'd got an advanced copy of your book and that it was awesome. I'm looking forward to reading it!)

    1. lol. And here I am doing the same thing as everyone else -- forgetting my email!

      It's MegTrotter AT gmail DOT com.


  36. Ah Cj Redwine! Thanks for this giveaway! Ever since i first heard about you book in a WoW post, I knew i wanted to read it!
    Thanks also for having a main character with my first name! I so rarely see Rachel's in books.

    I am thankful for my dog who always loves me even if i made embarrassing mistakes.
    I am also thankful for outstanding giveaways!

    Thanks So Much!!!

  37. I'm thankful for my puppies, who keep me sane and lower my blood pressure when my students or my writing raise it!

    So looking forward to your novel!!

  38. I'm greatfull for My kids although they drive me crazy at times. They have made me into the person I am today and not like to crazy people that have no Idea what to do with themselves

  39. I am grateful that after living with Multiple Sclerosis for 11 years, I am still fully functioning. I have 3 small kids, a wonderful husband, supportive parents and still work full time at a job I truly love! I am a high school librarian and I adore each and every one of my readers!


  40. I most thankful for the precious time I was given with mother before she passed a few years ago. Also for my wonderful husband and my beautiful children.

    Great giveaway
    Books Live Forever

  41. I am so grateful for each day that I have with my husband and daughter. My husband has been ill for the past few years and it looks like it is a terminal condition. So everyday that we get to laugh and love our family is truly a blessing!

  42. I'm infinitely grateful for my mother because she's always supported me, taught me to be a good person and has loved me even when I wasn't always deserving of it. ♥


    Thank you for the amazing giveaway! I hope the rest of the month treats you with more awesome things in store :)

  43. Congratulations. Not all stories turn out like yours, so it's great to hear when beat cancer.

    I'm grateful for my parents. They did all they good to give me a good start in life, and have supported me every step of the way.


  44. I am very grateful for my mom. She always makes me see the positive. And when needed, disciplines me with a fair loving hand. She has been the only steady thing in my life since I was born. Loving me with her unconditional love!:)

  45. Grateful does not begin to describe how blessed I am! After a year of medical treatments and protocols, I'm back to full health and am living every day as the joyful gift it should be. :-)

  46. Oh, wow, where to start?? Thankful for 6 healthy kids and spring finally arriving! Thankful for writers and books and free books and beautiful covers...


  47. There are so many things that I am grateful for and you want me to pick just one?! You're insane, my friend! ;-)

    Okay, today I am most grateful for my incredible husband who lifts me up mentally, emotionally, and even physically (once or twice o.O). He's not just my husband, he's my best friend, my confidante, my drill sergeant, and the love of my life. <3

    My email is niassa at gmail dot com :-)

  48. I am so grateful to my mother who has stood by me no matter the problem/issue and has always offered me loving and realistic advice, even when I didn't want to hear it.

    Thanks for this giveaway, and I'm so happy for all you've overcome.


  49. I am gratefull for my family and friends who are always there for me.


  50. I am gratefull for my family and friends who are always there for me.


  51. I am gratefull for my family and friends who are always there for me.


  52. I'm so ever grateful for my husband. Not just because he got my flowers today (he did), but because he's my rock. My strength. He always supports me.

    deadtossedwaves at gmail dot com

  53. I am gratefull for my family and friends who are always there for me.


  54. I'm very grateful for my mom and my cat. They are my strength.

    My email address is haunted1776@gmail.com

    Thanks for this great giveaway!!

  55. I am grateful for the opportunity to share good literature with the members of my school community. Winning a book would be an awesome gift for my library!
    Todd Phillips Teacher-Librarian Cumberland Junior School

  56. I'm so grateful for my family and the love, loyalty, and support that I receive from them.

    Thank you for the giveaway!


  57. Grateful for my wonderful family! They've been supportive no mater what.

    wordywon AT gmail DOT com

  58. You have given up gold again, or should I say, as always? :D I want one of these. BAD. So, I'm grateful for my inlaws. They've helped us through the really rough times, monetarily, emotionally, and loved us through everything! When we found out my youngest had Down Syndrome, they treated him with all the love in the world, just like they had the first two grandkids we gave them. They treated my elder two from a first marriage, just as if they were their own blood grandkids. (That sounds like were a family of vamps or zombies LOL) And my MIL has been a huge supporter of my work and always believed in me. I'm also VERY grateful for writer friends - like you! You helped me with my query, I have CP partners, and editors, and agents, who have all helped me become the writer my MIL believed I could be :D So, lots of peeps I'm grateful for! OY, I know you have my email, but here it is again, cuz if I lose that book... wailing and gnashing of teeth shall commence. :D


    And, congratulations again!! You've been a huge inspiration and a favorite "dreaming of writing" author friend of mine who made it :D:D:D

  59. I am grateful for my boyfriend (who I get to marry in just 37 days WHAT) who understands me and accepts me. Who loves me unconditionally. Who puts up with my craziness. Who kills all the bugs for me. Who works so hard to support us and provide us with the kind of life we've dreamed of. Ah, I just love him!

    I am also grateful for his 12 year old brother who just last night saved us all from this hideous, hairy, 1/2 lb moth that infiltrated our house last night. Shudders.


  60. I am grateful for the precious time I had with my Mother before she passed a few years ago. Also for my wonderful husband and beautiful children...

    Great Giveaway. Thank you
    Books Live Forever

  61. I'm grateful for my father, who just seems to "get" me. If I need someone to just listen, he's always there without judgment and without criticism.

  62. I am grateful for clean air that allows my family to enjoy the great outdoors. My children can run around outside without breathing in smog filled air. I can wake up in the morning and smell the dew on the grass and the sweet smell of flowers on the breeze. That is what I am grateful for.


  63. I am grateful for all of my friends and family and their health! Yeah it's cheesy but true :D


  64. I'm grateful for warm, sunny days.


  65. I am so grateful for my boyfriend. We are in a long distance relationship, which is always hard, and many people can't handle it. But I don't know what I'd do without him, so I feel so lucky to have a boyfriend who's hanging in there. I know that he'd rather get through a few difficult months/years and then spend the rest of our lives together rather than never be with each other at all.

    He has this amazing way of looking at me that just makes me feel so special, loved, and appreciated. I have so many weird quirks (don't we all) but he loves me no matter what, and I know that he'll never stop loving me. He listens to every single word I say and can perfectly recall all our conversations. It's amazing to have someone who LISTENS to you intently and treasures the words you share.

    Thank you so much for this wonderful opportunity :) It is pretty crazy how all (or many) of your major milestones occurred in May! A worthy celebration!

    Best wishes,
    cazzyae (at) gmail (dot) com

  66. I am grateful for my husband because without him I would not be where I am today!! :)


  67. I have two people that have been my rock throughout life:
    #1: My Mom. She was my best friend and practically my sister in many ways. Blunt to a fault, her advice got me through many sticky spots; especially when I wouldn't listen and she knew I needed to. She taught me how to work hard, always have a goal, and above all love your family.
    #2: My husband. He brought me back from a dark place that I had sentenced myself to after Mom's sudden sickness and death. In between the time that she died and I met him, I just existed for no other reason other than to breathe air and take care of my younger brother that I had gained custody of. He showed me that I could have happiness and have a better life for us. All this with an awesome,loving partner and friend. He even gave up his arachnophobia for me... LOL
    I have been so lucky to have both of them in my life. :)

    Nikki @ Books Most Wanted

  68. I am grateful for my family. Even though they annoy me sometimes, they are always there for me when I need them. I am also thankful for reading and books because reading and escaping to another world in a book always helps me when I am feeling sad or distracted or stressed out.

    rebecca191 at aol.com

  69. Those are some really great things that happened in May. Can't wait to read Defiance. Yay!

    I am grateful for my sisters. They know each little silly thing about my childhood, they love my children to pieces and they are the best friends I have.


  70. I'm grateful for one of my friends, with whom I'm having a long distance friendship. We met online through a mutual interest a couple years ago and have been texting/messaging/tweeting since then. She is in college like me and is supportive and caring, in ways I didn't feel like I was seeing from other people in my life. If that makes any sense. Of course it's hard not being able to hang out whenever, but I'm so glad to have her in my life. We hope that someday when we are more independent and financially established, we can make plans to see each other. :D

    Thank you for the giveaway!

    Kristi S.
    @whoaaitskristi or

  71. I am grateful for Eric, my husband. He has believed in me from the very second I decided I wanted to pursue my dream of becoming an author.

    An example would be about a month after we became engaged, I was struggling to finish my first NaNoWriMo using my sister's laptop because I didn't have one of my own, but it was somewhat of a hassle having to schedule when I could use it and all. I was driving and he turned to me with this thoughtful look on his face and said he was going to buy me my own laptop. I told him it was too much of an expense but he said that I was a writer and I worked hard and I deserved my own laptop. It was good we were near our destination because I was so overcome with the sweetness of it that driving was a little difficult.

    He bought me this laptop (that I'm using now) that weekend using his paycheck, choosing to go without that week instead of see me go without something he considered necessary for my writing journey.

    He has continued supporting me, giving me space to work, encouraging me when I get down, and loving me even when all I want to talk about are the characters in my head. I am so deeply blessed to have him in my life. I couldn't be a happier wife or writer! ^_^


    1. That is one of the best stories evah!

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  73. I am grateful to my grandmother. She is always there for me know matter what. She practically raised me and I will always be thankful for that.

    drinkshrunkentears at gmail dot com

  74. I'm grateful for my three friends; I met them this year, and we donded immediately!


  75. I am so grateful for my sister and her family. She is always there for me. Whenever I'm feeling down I can go to her house and the snuggles from her kids make life better.

    heidi at yabibliophile dot com

  76. Funny, as much as you love May, I hate it. Lots of bad stuff happened to me in May. BUT, I am grateful for my daughter. She came along at the perfect time, when our family needed some new life to get us going again (and of course she's the best kid ever).

    caldellizzi at gmail dot com

  77. I am very grateful for my mother because she does everything she can for me.

    katvela12345 AT hotmail.com

  78. Not to sound super cheesy, but I am really thankful for my family. I love my kids more than anything but I am also grateful for my mom. We grow closer every year and I am so glad to have her in my life. :)


  79. I'm grateful for my mom and my cousin Amanda for just always being there.


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  81. I am so grateful for my grandmother. I don't now what I'd do without her. She has the biggest heart.


  82. I'm grateful for zillions of people, but my hubby tops the list. Gwynly deserves a gold medal or something for putting up with me. He picks me up when I'm down, celebrates all of my successes, and makes me laugh when I take myself too seriously. He. Totally. Rocks!

    For the record, I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY want to win that ARC. I've read your work, so I know how totally out-of-this-world awesome your book is gonna be. I'd bribe you with a box or ten of Hot Tamales if that would help my chances, but something tells me you're gonna be all fair about this. Even so, I can hope I win. And if hoping can make it happen, that ARC's gonna be mine. =)

    keligwyn (at) keligwyn. com

  83. I am grateful for my sister Tabby the reason being is because she shared a book series with me that helped me find my love for reason and without reading I might have gone insane by now... ;)


    Thank you for this opportunity,

  84. Thanks for the giveaway! I'm looking forward to Defiance. :)

    I'm grateful for coffee because I cannot function well without it. :D

    -Len of Musings of a Reader Happy

  85. I am very thankful for my stepmom. Without her I wouldn't be the woman I am nor would I have such a great little sister.


  86. I am grateful for my son. I never realized how much you can love someone until i had him.

    findjessyhere at gmail dot com

  87. First, what a lovely, lovely way to celebrate your gratitude for May and a beautiful way to do a giveaway. <3 Look at all the people above focusing on gratitude and love. <3 <3 <3

    I'm sincerely grateful for so many things, but the top of my list, always: My husband and daughter. I'm blessed that they're in my life, and they're both healthy.

    I could wax poetic for hours upon hours about my husband. Suffice to say, I am luckier than I deserve. He is a saint to put up with me.

    authorlolasharp -At- g-string, er, I mean mail

  88. I am grateful for my mother. At times, she can really annoy me and talk where she shouldn't, but as she is getting older, I realize just how many things I rely on her for. If I want to vent, need to know a recipe, need a babysitter, or just want to talk, she is always there. I take for granted that if I need her she is but a call away. Don't know what I would do without her.

    hschrock24112 at yahoo dot com

  89. CJ, I had no idea about the cancer and I'm glad you're OK now!

    My own gratitude story is fairly recent - I am grateful that after 8-10 years of suffering, I've finally found out what's wrong with me. I thought I had a mixture of IBS and ME but one day I just figured it out and stopped eating gluten. It was like a miracle and I feel so, so, so much better. This only happened in January so technically, my insides are still healing but I no longer feel drugged, like I'm walking around under a veil. I could choose to be angry and frustrated about what's happened and why doctors didn't figure it out but I CHOOSE to feel grateful because I could have been living that way forever *shudder*.

    Thank you for the opportunity to win :)

  90. I'm always ever grateful for the quality of being humane: can't imagine how it'd be without.

    Thanks for doing this, and you can find me goodreads: http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/7607242-sai

    Or twitter:

  91. I'm grateful for my family and the constant support they give me. Without them I would be lost.


  92. I am grateful for my Mother-in-Law because she is the perfect grandmother to my children. They are growing up KNOWING that she loves them and that makes me happy.


  93. I am grateful to the community of writers out there. Writing can be a lonely business, connecting to others through the web is just invaluable to my semi sanity.

    Great topic CJ!


  94. I'm very grateful for my kids and the fact that they are healthy. I'm also thankful that you are cancer-free now! Thanks for this awesome giveaway ♥

    kassiah at fictionators dot com

  95. Ooh, yay, contest! Um, I'm grateful to have public education. Even though I'm really nervous about the results of the test I just took, I'm glad that I have the opportunity to take it.

  96. I am grateful that my soon to be grandchild is a girl finally. I really need to buy something pink! I am also grateful that the second ultrasound that my baby girl had to have showed no signs of the heart problem the doctor was concerned about in the new baby. Its been a good month for is.


  97. Grateful for my happy, healthy boys. They make me want to pull my hair at some (most) times, but they give my life meaning:)

    theflyleafreview at gmail dot com

  98. Wow! Your post could not have been more timely for me. Four years ago today my mother lost her battle with cervical cancer. Everyday I am grateful for the time I got with her. I am also grateful for my 90 year old grandma and all of the other amazing, strong women in my life (my brothers are pretty cool too!)Thanks for sharing your success!


  99. im grateful toward my mom for raising me even though she didn't have to. (I'm adopted)

  100. I'm grateful for my husband. My grandma just passed away a couple weeks ago and he's been really helpful in this difficult time for me. He's always willing to do something to make me feel better or just give me a little space if that's what I need.

  101. Congratulations, CJ! Lots to celebrate, and thanks for sharing the special time with us! I'm very thankful for so many things, starting with my family and husband. We are truly blessed to be living where we are, surrounded by friends and family. There's no substitute for the encouragement of those who love you :)

    f dot chen at comcast dot net

  102. This is so hard. So many things to be grateful for. I can be sentimental and say I'm thankful for my mom who has worked so hard to provide since the divorce. My friends for cheering me up and giving me something else toink about when I'm sad and to just be there.

  103. I know this is the most popular answer by my MOM. She's incredible. I don't know where I'd be w/out her! I can't wait for Defiance! It looks beautiful! Thanks!

    hannahsue10 at gmail dot com

  104. I am grateful for my sister - the person I fought with the most when I was young but the person who has ALWAYS been there for me. I never would have believed then that she would turn into my best friend but she has. She always listens (even though she doesn't always answer the phone) and she always believes in me (even though I've always been somewhat crazy). Thank you, Maureen!

    catspane at gmail dot net

  105. I'm so grateful that I was able to adopt two beautiful girls, who make my life complete!

  106. i am very grateful that i'm still alive because i came very close to not making it after a really bad car accident almost 2 years ago. also very grateful that medical stuff has become so awesome that i could be saved and treated and i was able to come close to being how i was before the accident!

    1. oops forgot my email
      ame1184 at gmail dot com

  107. I'm greatful for my Grandmother. She really means a lot to me and i can to to her about almost anything. I'm not really sure what I would do without her.


  108. I'm grateful for my sisters who are my best friends. We didn't get along as children, but not we're like peas in a pod :D (We even have a peas in a pod necklace to prove this)

    Thank you for the giveaway. I am so excited for Defiance!

    lorimlee82 at gmail dot com

  109. I am grateful for all of the people in my life who have had an impact on me whether large or small and helped influence who I have become. Thanks for the giveaway, your book sounds great!

  110. I am grateful for all the awesome people in my life, as they are always there for me and are awesome.

    thebookcellar @ wi.rr.com

  111. At this very moment I am thankful for my parents for getting me through graduate school! I just received my Masters and will be a Nurse Anesthetist! Thanks for the awesome giveaway.


  112. Right now, I'm thankful for my family. They rock :) And my very . . . different life.


    PS, totally hyped about this book! -Squeals- =)November is too far away.

  113. Since my family and all the reasons I'm grateful for them probably go without saying, I'll choose someone else who I'm grateful for: my old high school journalism teacher Miss Winn. She was one of the first non-related adults in my life that really believed in me and supported all the dreams and goals I dared to have. She gave me the opportunity to join the paper and gave me an Editor position even though I was still fairly new to the program, and her kindness, generosity and gentle pushing for my dreams are something I'll never forget.

    Thank you for doing the giveaway!
    ashleylovesbooksblog [at] gmail [dot] com

  114. Wow, May has been an important month for you! I hope this May brings something wonderful your way, too.

    I am thankful for so many things! Health. A baby who sleeps (mostly) through the night. A laptop to type on. The desire and drive to write. These are all huge blessings.

    Thanks for the wonderful giveaway! a2sonnichsen (at) gmail (dot) com

  115. First of all, thank you so much for letting us know how important is May for you with its good and very bad things that happened in your life.

    Second, thank you so much for the wonderful giveaway :) yay! I've been drooling and swooning over Defiance since I first read about its premise! kyaaa! Im such a Fantasy lover!! I cant wait for it!! =DDDD kyaaaa!! So thank you so much for the chance you are giving us to win an arc or a wonderful bookmark!!! *drool!!!*

    And third, to answer your question...well... it is hard to name only one thing that I am grateful for when there is so much Im grateful for every day. However, right now there is one thing I am grateful the most. I am grateful that my mom still alive. Because of a cancer , too, she spent 4 months at the hospital but now she is finally back home and getting a little bit stronger everyday :). She is still here! that is what I am most grateful for. Now, I am also very grateful to know that after having cancer yourself, you were pronounced "cured". It is so encouraging to hear something like this :) For that, THANK YOU! <3 <3

    Have a wonderful week ^.^


  116. I am most grateful for my family. They have always been there for me and I can always count on them for everything. I love them so much and am so lucky to have them in my life.


  117. Isn't it crazy how things go in cycles? April is always important to me because that's when I decide where I'm going to be for the next year. So after months of not knowing where I'm going it's always a relief for the next step to make itself known.

    I'm so grateful for my parents. They always support me, even when I know it's really hard for them to do. I'm very blessed to have been given such a wonderful family.

    Thanks so much for sharing your May joys with us =)

    hannahle816 at gmail dot com

  118. I'm grateful for my mother who takes care of me even though I'm a pain in her ass sometimes :P

    Thanks for the giveaway! Seems like the month of May is a big one for you.


  119. I can think of two things off the top of my head:

    First, my family. They are everything to me. They encourage me, challenge me, and make me try to be a better person.

    Second, I got the all-clear this month, after a breast cancer scare. I will always be thankful for May for that!

    Thanks for a great giveaway!


  120. I am grateful for the life God has blessed me with, including my husband and our two children, who teach me something each and every day.


    1. I would also like to add that I have a think for May too- I conceived my daughter in May 2007 :)

  121. I am so beyond grateful for my daughter. I was headed down a really dark and ugly path until I found out that I was pregnant with her. I turned my life around because children deserve to have a parent that is present for them, and the person that I was at the time wouldn't have been that. I have a great job, a fantastic network of friends, and I've found so much to love about life all because of her. Oh, and she's a really AWESOME kid! I know exactly how lucky I am. :-)

    pherlaithiel (at) gmail (dot) com

  122. I'm grateful that I contemplated suicide after the birth of my daughter.

    I realize that's a bold statement, but allow me to explain.

    In 1994 I was in a troubled marriage with a man 14 years my senior (I was 23) and who also had bipolar disorder. I was also pregnant with my first child.

    My pregnancy was an incredibly difficult one. I had something called "hyperemesis gravidarum" (essentially 24/7 morning sickness with road rage). I lost 40 pounds in the first trimester alone. I was either at the ER, admitted into the hospital, or had home health care coming to my home for the first half of my pregnancy. My life was one of throwing up when I so much as tried to drink a sip of water, incredible weakness from a lack of nutrition, and constant IV fluids. During the pregnancy my then-husband also broke his leg and went on disability, cutting our only income in half. We were already living paycheck-to-paycheck and getting further and further in debt thanks to my medical needs. I also developed gestational diabetes and blood pressure issues during this time.

    After giving birth to my daughter, I rapidly descended into severe postpartum depression and anxiety. I didn't sleep. I kept the blinds closed. I would often turn off the tv and hide if someone came to the door. I found it difficult to soothe my new baby girl, and felt jealous and guilty when my mother or sister or father could calm her within seconds of holding her. At one point, after I'd been been up with my daughter screaming for several hours straight (I later discovered my daughter was born with Early Onset Bipolar Disorder, which played into even these early difficulties), something terrifying happened.

    I was so strung out from lack of sleep, so amped up with anxiety, and so convinced of my failure as a mother, that I came to my breaking point. I put my daughter in her crib, left her room, and slammed the door so hard the walls shook. I stood outside of her room and bawled - great, heaving sobs. I closed my eyes and slid down the wall to sit on the floor. When I closed my eyes... The best way I can describe this is that it was like I was watching a movie. Every detail was visually as crisp and clear as that. But in my mind, as I sat outside her door, I watched myself in this mental movie. I watched as I picked up my precious baby girl by the feet. I watched as I swung her body. I watched as I smashed her head against the white wall of her room over and over. I watched as the wall turned red with her blood.

    I had been, all of this time after delivery, terrified that I was a horrible mom, that I wasn't breastfeeding right, that my baby would be taken from me. Now, I knew she'd be better off without me. I knew I'd rather take my own life than to risk EVER hurting her as I'd done in that mental movie. I couldn't figure out, though, what to do. She ONLY took my breast milk, and only "from the source". She refused to take a bottle, or even a pacifier. I felt she would starve without me, and knew it wouldn't be safe for her to be raised by her father. As I thought all of this, it occurred to me that I was seriously considering killing myself, and that I might have to "take her with me".

    That realization absolutely terrified me.

    (to be continued in reply - too long)

    1. I picked up my phone and I called my OBGYN. I was sobbing so hard it's still amazing to me that the nurse could understand me at all. My doctor got on the phone within minutes. She told me exactly what I needed to hear in that moment - "The fact that you know it's wrong tells me that you're not going to hurt her". She instructed me to call my mom over, then to have her put the baby in the car seat and drive me to her office. She left instructions to be told of my arrival immediately, even if she was in with a patient at that time. My doctor told me that she knew how much I loved my daughter, how much I wanted to be a good mother, and that she believed in me. She told me that it sounded like I had a bad case of postpartum depression and anxiety. She told me that medication could help, and that I didn't have to stop breastfeeding if I took it. Thanks to my doctor, I got the help I needed.

      Fast-forward to 1999. At this point I'm in a new (healthier) marriage and I'm once again pregnant. I "only" lost about 15 pounds in the first trimester due to my hyperemesis gravidarum. I now also lived across the country from my family, and hadn't made many friends or developed much of a support system. Having had PPD and PPA with my daughter, I knew I was at a higher risk for having those same issues again. I started looking online, trying to find some sort of support system to hook into. I found a few websites with information, but nothing much in terms of support.

      So, thanks to the suffering I endured after the birth of my daughter, and thanks to a lack of support resources online, I was inspired to create The Online PPMD Support Group (ppdsupportpage.com). Thanks to the ability to have peer-to-peer support - without having to leave your house, without having to live in a densely populated area, and without even having to reveal any identifying information - thousands upon thousands of struggling mothers have found comfort, support, and education. Several moms over the years have written me years after their struggles to tell me that the website I created saved their lives.

      I've never made a dime on the website, and that's because I don't my site to be something that profits from the suffering of others. I don't want my website to be an advertisement or endorsement of any one treatment plan. I only want other mothers to NOT feel like I did in that horrible "mental movie" moment - alone and hopeless.

      So I'm grateful for the lowest point of my life. I feel strongly that I wouldn't have been made to endure such senseless, horrible pain without a reason, without something good coming from it. My experience makes me feel a kinship to the fabled phoenix, because I feel that from the ashes of that pain came the joyful, uplifting rising of something beautiful and profound.

    2. Sorry - forgot to include my email.

      zonitonya AT gmail DOT com

  123. I'm thankful for the amazing friends I've met over the years. Even if they were only around for a brief time, they were there when I needed them to be. They've helped me through so many different things. They've shared laughter, tears, & jokes. They've let me vent, cheered me up, & encouraged me.

    meow_mix85 (at) hotmail (dot) com

  124. I'm grateful that my mother came back from the hospital and that it wasn't cancer. I was very scared. My mother and me have been through so much.


  125. I'm thankful for my family, I have a great hubby, 3 amazing sons, and 2 miracle parents who by medical means shouldn't still be here. Tell the people you love that you do every day! \

    Anyway thanks for doing the giveaway!
    <3 Tobi
    tobihelton at gmail dot com

  126. Well, I can't win anyway because I'm in Aus but I'm grateful for my partner, my babies, books, and author's like you who share their stories, fictional and non fictional! Congratulations to you C.J.Redwine!!!!!

  127. I am grateful for the amazing family i have and the amazing adoption extended family we met in Hong Kong in November 2010. These families (including yours!!) have forever become a part if our lives. I thank God that we had such an amazing travel group that are now life long friends !

    I an so excited for you CJ and can't wait for the release of Defiance!

  128. I'm grateful for everyone in my life. My friends and family are supportive, loving, and wonderful people. My parents, boyfriend, and best friends are the ones that keep me going during the hard times and lift me even higher during the good times.

    Congrats on Defiance's release and thank you for this super wow giveaway.

    -Lisa B.
    angel28140 (at) yahoo (dot) com

  129. I'm grateful for my dog. She's curled up beside me right now. We're braving the storm together. I never thought I was a dog person until my friends asked me to take her (they had a baby - the dog is not so good with babies :). It was pretty much love at first sight. My dog is sweet and frisky and so huggable - she teaches me so much about unconditional love. When I cry, she jumps in my lap and licks the tears off my face. She's a blessing I never asked for or anticipated. I'm so grateful I get to take care of her.

    Thanks for sharing your important May-days on here. I can't wait to read Defiance!

    - Natalie
    natalie_2911 (at) hotmail (dot) com

  130. I am grateful for my best friend. She is always there for me and has in the past year gotten the reading bug so we have even more in common. We hadn't seen each other in almost 10 years but met up this past April to go to a book convention and it was fantastic. She is not just my best friend, but my sister =)


  131. I'm grateful for my best friend. I've known her since kindergarten and she's been there for me ever since. She's helped me through a lot of stuff with my family and when I was in a really bad place, she helped me feel like a human being again.

    Thank you for the wonderful giveaway! :)


  132. I'm grateful for my wonderful friends here in Shanghai. They make being in this rather intimidating and often overwhelming and frustrating city a blessing. I don't think I've ever had a group of friends with whom I've felt comfortable just hanging out with until now.

    stephxsu at gmail dot com

  133. I am grateful for my imagination and how it allows me to have so many ideas in my head of novels and stories I'd like to write. I'm also grateful for my family and friends for all their wonderful love and support.

    Awesome giveaway! Hope I win! :D :D Thanks
    dpederson12 at yahoo dot ca

  134. I'm grateful for my parents. They're always there for me, and they help me out so much. I think I'd be completely lost without them. I've never really had the whole phase where you just can't stand your parents either. I just can't imagine not wanting them around, and I'm so grateful that I still have them. My cousins lost both their parents when they were all very young, so I'm always incredibly grateful for the fact that I have both of mine, and that I was blessed with such amazing parents. :)

    Thanks for the giveaway, and I'm glad May has become so great for you...especially since your cancer is gone! That's amazing! And I can't wait to read Defiance, ever since I heard about it a few months back it's been on my must-read-when-it-comes-out list! :D


  135. I am grateful to wake up every day. Life has thrown some major obstacles at me, but by persevering, and often just surviving, I wake up to a husband that accepts my faults, loves my humor and calls me beautiful. A daughter who shines on me with her beauty, humor, and reminders that innocence is to be cherished and protected. I am grateful to wake up every day and see the snow, sun, rain, the passing of the seasons. To call my sister with my triumphs and failures and share hers. I am grateful to wake up to a cat that is the best editing buddy an author could have and two chihuahuas that cuddle on my desk as my creative juices flow.

    More than that, I am simply grateful for another day, another breath, another heartbeat.


  136. My sister and Dad because they're people I know I can always count on! :)


  137. I'm grateful for my parents. They've both been to, in my opinion, hell and back - My dad had a hip transplant and kidney transplant about 2 months apart almost 13 years ago. The kidneys were almost shut down completely when he was being wheeled into the operating room. Around the same time, my mom's appendix burst and for 2 whole days she didn't know what was wrong with her. I almost lost both of them in a 4 week span of each other.

    Going through all that, they taught both my brother and I that you cannot waste what precious amount of time you have on this earth and it is better to love than hate or worry. I grateful for the sacrifices they've made for our family, even if I don't show it all the time. :)

    (Alright, I'm determined to end this on a positive note) I'm really excited for this giveaway - I've been wanting to read this book ever since you gave me tidbits of the jewelry involved. XD And I congratulate you for conquering your hardships and triumphs. Especially the cancer, that is wonderful!!


  138. I am thankful for my parents who take care of me because I've lived in countries before where there would be orphans living on the streets or parents who weren't able to provide for their child, so they would have to beg people for food.


  139. This morning I shadowed a quadrilpegic gentleman's care aid. His current aid is leaving and I was there to learn the job, and I really wasn't prepared for it. I knew he was a quad but I guess I didn't realize how involved the job is - he can't use his legs, and he has very limited use of his arms. Basically, he's like a baby - granted, a baby who can crack jokes while you're putting his clothes on and while helping him defecate. I am so thankful I have control of my body, that I can do these every day activities that are so easy to take for granted. And I am also grateful that this gentleman has care aids who make it possible for him to live in his home, and that he has some amazing people and one amazing dog in his life. :]

    teddycavygal at yahoo dot com

  140. I can't begin to account for all of the people that I am grateful for in my life. There have been so many people that have made me a better person and have helped me is so many ways. The person I am most grateful for is my husband. There are times when he drives me crazy but he is a wonderful man and a great father to my two beautiful children. I love him so much and I am the luckiest girl in the world to have him in my life. Congrats on all of your May milestones!!! I can't wait to read your book I heard about it a few months ago and I have been very patiently waiting for it to be released :)!!!! Thanks for the chance to win it a little early!!!!

  141. Me? I'm grateful for so many things, expecially my family who have supported me on most of the things I've done, and have helped me stay clear of all the things I shouldn' thave done. ;) I'm never going to try and pet a skunk again


  142. Wow. I'm so inspired by your story. You overcame such odds. I'm an awe.

    What I'm grateful for is simple. I'm grateful for the gift of life. The ability to wake up every morning and see the sky, my family, my friends, my boyfriend. That's what I'm grateful for. My life that is given to me is a gift. We're given such a small amount of time on this earth that we need to realize what is important, and that's our relationships with others.

    Thank you so much for the giveaway. I'm so excited for your trilogy :)

    My email is gsanmiguel@gmail.com

  143. I love how your Mays just keep getting better. =)

    I'm grateful for my Mom. That's the first thing I thought of. I have a lot of things to be thankful for, but she is definitely number one on the list. We're so close, and I don't know where I'd be without her love and support.

    asherz86 at gmail dot com

    Thanks for the giveaway!

  144. I am grateful for my wonderful boyfriend, who made me realize that commitment doesn't have to be something to be afraid of, and who pulled me out of a bad place I was in. I'm also grateful that even though he has terminal cancer, I have a chance to spend time with him. Better to lose love than to never love at all, right? And, well, I believe that. I also believe that everything really does happen for a reason, so as painful as everything is, I have to believe it will be worth it.

    annabelle lovell (at) yahoo (dot) com

  145. I'm grateful for my son, he is the only person I can say has been there for me through thick an thin. He has always encouraged me to be a better person, woman, and mother. When nobody else was there to support me he was always there to give me his brightest smile, which is his way of telling me to be strong. He is my heart, support system, play buddy, and more. He is the only person I can say "it was LOVE at first sight."

    I love you IZIAH!


  146. C.J., This is a great contest. I am in the process of reading Defiance right now (and loving it). I am grateful for so many things, but since I just returned from a trip to China, I am going to go with clean air. I am grateful for the wonderful clean air here in Indiana.

  147. It's hard to choose just one person I'm grateful for. There's too many to list but I would like to show my gratitude toward a group of wonderful people. I'm grateful for authors. Any author, all authors. But especially Young Adult authors. I've met so many of them (even made friendships with some) and they seriously are some of the coolest people I have ever come across. Not only are they extremely talented and creative but they're so humble, down to earth and just thankful to every reader out there. Whether we, as the readers, liked their book or not. We at least gave them a shot and that's all they could ask for. The amount of pressure, stress, deadlines, rewrites, etc authors encounter they never let it ruin their moods. And may I add how I just LOVE how interactive they are with their readers. Not just teen readers but readers of all ages. How could an avid reader, like myself, not be grateful for such an amazing, diverse group of people?

    Since there's too many people in my personal life I am grateful for, I am going with authors. Since you are one, I am thanking you in advance. :)

    My email is: jessica.stepintofiction@gmail.com

  148. I'm grateful for books because if they've always been there for me even when people haven't been and there are books about EVERYTHING so they always made me realize that I wasn't alone.


  149. I was in first grade when my mother ,a thirty five year old special needs teacher, was diagnosed with breast cancer. It was hard at first the not knowing if she would make it or not. My whole family seemed to live in constant fear that something might go wrong with a surgery or find another lump. Thankfully after a long and grueling battle that lasted the better half of two years she was deemed cancer free and has stayed that way for over five years. I know I am blessed every day I get to see her smiling face. I also know that life is precious and I should live everyday to the fullest. I'm am the luckiest girl in the world to still have her in my life and with me today
    Thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to tell my story. I love your book.

  150. I am very grateful for having my parents in my life. I am 29 years old, and I will always be daddy's little girl. He is always there for me no matter what. Helps me out no matter what. My mom has always been there when I needed someone to talk to. I am very thankful I have them in my life.

    My email is: kristiyerian@yahoo.com

  151. I was in first grade when my mother ,a 35 year old special needs teacher, was diagnosed with breast cancer. At first it seemed impossible that my mother was sick and eventually she became weaker. My family and I had to come to grips with the idea that she might not make it. We all seemed to live in constant worry that something would go wrong or that she would find another lump. After a grueling fight for the better half of two years my mother was cancer free. I know I am blessed to still have my mother today eight years later. I also know that life is a precious gift and to always live it to the fullest. I couldn't imagine my life without her.
    I'm glad to be given this opportunity to share my story. I love your book and can't wait to read the others.

  152. I am so grateful for my sister. She has been battling health issues for 5 years, and she keeps such a great spirit about herself. She makes me laugh and is my best friend. So lucky to have her in my life!

    Thanks for the giveaway... I would love to add this book to my classroom library.
    Nicky... nsmith112@gmail.com

  153. I'm grateful for my dog. She makes me smile every day - even days like yesterday when I have a migraine and the rest of the day is miserable. She's a goof and I love her.

    Thanks so, so much for the giveaway!

    Book.splot (at) gmail (dot) com

  154. I am grateful for those people who are creative and dedicated enough to write. It takes a lot of time and imagination to come up with an amazing story, and the authors who are able to do it are amazing and inspirational. I hope to one day be in the category. Without books, my life would most definitely be incomplete, I get lonely if I do not have something to read!

    Email is : Shinyxoxmuffins@yahoo.com

  155. I have a lot to be grateful for - being alive, having loving friends and family, knowing so many incredible people that bless my life in many ways... you get the idea ;) Why? Simply because they make life interesting, worth living, and sometimes help me get through those days where I wish I could time travel. Ya know?

    Thanks for writing this novel and for the giveaway! I can't wait for the book to come out :D


    P.S. The cover is gorgeous! :)

  156. Wow! I hope I win this!! I've been dying to read your book!
    I am entirely grateful for my family and friends! I come to realize that I am absolutely nothing without them in this world.

    Thank you so much for this giveaway! :)
    You rock CJ! <333

  157. Omg! I'm so excited about this book! I hope I win!
    I am so grateful for my friends and family, because I know I would never be what I am today, without them! :)

    Thank you so much for hosting this giveaway!
    You rock CJ! <3

    My email:


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